
                      (my favorite of the smileys-- H, thinks their gross)
                      
                      another one of my favorites, I don't use very often 
                    Had a doc visit today about the seroquel and told him about 
                      how the med could raise hepatic panel, he asked me how long 
                      I have been off of the effexor (antidepressant) I said 204 
                      days (only because thats what I wrote in last diary) I think 
                      it is more like 206 days." 
                    He started laughing, how do you know this?" I told 
                      him that I have been keeping a diary since I was diagnosed 
                      tith HCV ---- bloodwork, herbal supplements, meds that I 
                      take or have quit, how I feel, my work schedule, I have 
                      it divided into chapters, and topics, and everything is 
                      dated, included are letters from you, the day I fax my info, 
                      everything! I have filled up this notebook and moved everything 
                      into a bigger one.
                    He still kinda chuckled. I went on to talk about the seroquel, 
                      raises hepatic panel, which should be a concern to him, 
                      and the eye twitches and shakey hands, parkinson like symptoms,dizziness 
                      if I move too fast, etc. I did try to talk about the central 
                      nervous system and how medication can imitate certain symptoms 
                      like parkinsons, he says: where are you getting all this 
                      stuff?
                    I reminded him of my notebook, your site and the internet 
                      ---- oh by the way, I already have another notebook filled 
                      on natural healing, things I copied from your site and others 
                      ------ I give copies to my friends and acquaintances.
                    Anyway, doc keeps changing subject which I expect him to. 
                      I don't budge. He is trying to get rid of me. I showed him 
                      the little bloodblisters and told him that the petechaie 
                      is getting smaller and some of it has gone away --- he asked, 
                      how do I know about that?
                    He won't have a decent conversation with me. I am educating 
                      myself about this and it pisses him off because he doesn't 
                      get kickbacks from the drugs he wants to prescribe to me 
                      ----------------- I FEEL GOOD TODAY ------------ doc is 
                      a weasy little jerkoff. $95.00 for an office visit ------- 
                      10.00 from me and the other 85.00 from ins co. He gets 95.00 
                      for 10-15 minutes of my time and I got weighed and sat in 
                      a chair in his office. 95 dollars divided by 15 minutes 
                      is 6.3 dollars a minute, now, it could be possible I was 
                      in there only 10 minutes, in which case he made 9.5 dollars 
                      a minute.
                    Pretty good money for someone who don't shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
                      and I still didn't get any info or help --- I am cutting 
                      down on my own, which is what I had to do with the other 
                      drug. 
                      
                      D.
                   
                  You are a wonderful person.
                  I suggest that you forget trying to get any help from doctors. 
                    They really do not give a shit about you, just selling you 
                    drugs.
                  This is not the world our parents grew up in where doctors 
                    were people who cared about us. When I was little, people 
                    always said, become a doctor and make lots of money. I think 
                    that most of the doctors around today were moved into wanting 
                    to be a doctor because of the promise of money, not because 
                    they wanted to help any one.
                  I wish I was wrong, I am not.